Lord, thank You for forgiveness. I can be such a prideful jerk
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Seriously?
I understand that English may not be your first language. Don't get me wrong, I think that's really cool to be bilingual, or trilingual, etc. But in mixed company, could you stick to English, please? Or at least translate what you are saying?
Why?
It leaves the rest of us out, and quite frankly, it's kind of rude. When you're speaking to friends and all of a sudden you switch to a language that not everyone speaks it ostracizes people, and it leaves those of us monolinguals slightly bitter.
Why?
It leaves the rest of us out, and quite frankly, it's kind of rude. When you're speaking to friends and all of a sudden you switch to a language that not everyone speaks it ostracizes people, and it leaves those of us monolinguals slightly bitter.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
No more motions
Christian duty checklist:
1) Eagle's Nest homeless ministry-check
2) Daily devotional time- 1/2 check
3) Prayer for strength in the midst of fasting-check
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.
.
Still somehow I don't feel...good. Christianity is more than a checklist of "good" things. I say this from daily experience. So many times I find myself trying to be a person God can love. You know the type, nice and friendly, responsible, respectful and respectable, etc. The only problem is I could never be worthy of God's love. Honestly, I am a manipulative, deceptive, selfish person.
Yet, He loves me. And He's growing me a little bit more everyday into the person He wants me to be.
That's what it's about, the love of God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit. Despite my flaws as a person He loves me, and wants to be with me. How could I not praise a God like that?
So, I know what I must do. I must be because God loves. Not to earn brownie points because they don't exist here. Besides, that is a self-centered way of viewing my relationship with God, because I'm making it about what I am, and what I do. If I wake up more in love with God it will transform all that I do.
There. I want to love God more.
1) Eagle's Nest homeless ministry-check
2) Daily devotional time- 1/2 check
3) Prayer for strength in the midst of fasting-check
.
.
.
Still somehow I don't feel...good. Christianity is more than a checklist of "good" things. I say this from daily experience. So many times I find myself trying to be a person God can love. You know the type, nice and friendly, responsible, respectful and respectable, etc. The only problem is I could never be worthy of God's love. Honestly, I am a manipulative, deceptive, selfish person.
Yet, He loves me. And He's growing me a little bit more everyday into the person He wants me to be.
That's what it's about, the love of God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit. Despite my flaws as a person He loves me, and wants to be with me. How could I not praise a God like that?
So, I know what I must do. I must be because God loves. Not to earn brownie points because they don't exist here. Besides, that is a self-centered way of viewing my relationship with God, because I'm making it about what I am, and what I do. If I wake up more in love with God it will transform all that I do.
There. I want to love God more.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Strange Days
Preparing for missions...
I'm soooooooo busy...
Need to fight for my Quiet Time with God...
Am slacking in school, sort of...I am doing more work, but it's still last minute...
I dropped Circuits, so school is better...
I hope Tamara gets back from D.C. tonight, safely!...
I want a moment to breathe that doesn't have to be scheduled in...
God is Lord of all.
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?
I'm soooooooo busy...
Need to fight for my Quiet Time with God...
Am slacking in school, sort of...I am doing more work, but it's still last minute...
I dropped Circuits, so school is better...
I hope Tamara gets back from D.C. tonight, safely!...
I want a moment to breathe that doesn't have to be scheduled in...
God is Lord of all.
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Matthew 28:19-20
So whether or not I go on missions this summer, these are songs that have encouraged me to really commit myself without fear to the plan that God has for me.
Song-Artist-Album
1) In Me-Casting Crowns-Lifesong
2) Let It Go-Tenth Avenue North-Over and Underneath
3) Mission's Flame-Matt Redman-How Great is our God
4) Not to Us-Chris Tomlin-Not to Us
5) Yours-Stephen Curtis Chapman-This Moment
6) He Reigns-Newsboys-Adoration
7) If You Want Me To-Ginny Owens-If You Want Me To
8) Message-Sanctus Real-Fight the Tide
I will update this list as I remember songs, and as I learn new ones. I strongly encourage anyone and everyone to listen.
Song-Artist-Album
1) In Me-Casting Crowns-Lifesong
2) Let It Go-Tenth Avenue North-Over and Underneath
3) Mission's Flame-Matt Redman-How Great is our God
4) Not to Us-Chris Tomlin-Not to Us
5) Yours-Stephen Curtis Chapman-This Moment
6) He Reigns-Newsboys-Adoration
7) If You Want Me To-Ginny Owens-If You Want Me To
8) Message-Sanctus Real-Fight the Tide
I will update this list as I remember songs, and as I learn new ones. I strongly encourage anyone and everyone to listen.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
*phew*
So I just registered for my Spring semester classes, and I did not slit my wrists, so thank God for that, lol.
(Disclaimer: To anyone who might stumble across this blog, no I am not suicidal, I just go to Georgia Tech.)
Why is such a high stress situation? Well the Christian answer is that it's because I'm not relying on God enough. Not to say that that isn't what the answer is in general, but it's a bit deeper. With next semester I will for the first time be taking a majority major classes (classes for my major), contrastive to the general prerequisites I have been taking, so it kind of freaks me out. Also, something I realized today in Tuesday prayer is that I'm scared to specialize in STEM (Science, Technology, Engineering, and Math). I feel like I would loose all of my creativity and only talk in terms of derivatives, and loads. God was telling me, though, having a higher understanding of the world around me won't separate from Him, but rather give me a glimpse of who God is from a whole other viewpoint. I guess I never realized that before Newton, Jacob, and all the other mathematicians and physicists there was God who created it all. So learning all of this stuff is like reading my Bible, I get to see who God is and what He has done.
Ah, I see now how I can worship God in my classes.
Oh yea. I am an African-American female, and I voted for John McCain. Whether he wins or not is not up to me, it will be according to the will of God. And no matter who the president turns out to be, I will pray for him, because he will the leader that God has put in place for His glory.
(Disclaimer: To anyone who might stumble across this blog, no I am not suicidal, I just go to Georgia Tech.)
Why is such a high stress situation? Well the Christian answer is that it's because I'm not relying on God enough. Not to say that that isn't what the answer is in general, but it's a bit deeper. With next semester I will for the first time be taking a majority major classes (classes for my major), contrastive to the general prerequisites I have been taking, so it kind of freaks me out. Also, something I realized today in Tuesday prayer is that I'm scared to specialize in STEM (Science, Technology, Engineering, and Math). I feel like I would loose all of my creativity and only talk in terms of derivatives, and loads. God was telling me, though, having a higher understanding of the world around me won't separate from Him, but rather give me a glimpse of who God is from a whole other viewpoint. I guess I never realized that before Newton, Jacob, and all the other mathematicians and physicists there was God who created it all. So learning all of this stuff is like reading my Bible, I get to see who God is and what He has done.
Ah, I see now how I can worship God in my classes.
Oh yea. I am an African-American female, and I voted for John McCain. Whether he wins or not is not up to me, it will be according to the will of God. And no matter who the president turns out to be, I will pray for him, because he will the leader that God has put in place for His glory.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend...
"Which To Bury; Us Or The Hatchet"
I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget
and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened
And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far
Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault
I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that
and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)
what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...
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