Well Here's the Thing...

I'm utterly confused. I have no clue as to who I am, or what I want, or how I truly feel, or anything. Why is it so hard to discern whether or not I feel something or not? I don't understand why there should be any question.

It's because I screwed up the first time. If I hadn't been so hasty, or if I hadn't been looking for validation I wouldn't be so hesitant right now.

How do I know that I'm not just trying to not be alone right now? Or what if I simply fell under the spell of passionate music? (Moulin Rouge has an awesome score)

But then what if there is something legitimate? What if...

I don't know why...

I...I feel like crying